The Ninth File.
“If you are going through hell, keep going.”
(Winston Churchill)
“Fairy Tale Battle Royale” by イナ
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Life isn’t meant to be an all or nothing battle between misery and bliss. Life isn’t meant to be a battle at all. And when it comes to happiness, well, sometimes life is just OK. Sometimes it’s comfortable, sometimes wonderful, sometimes boring, sometimes uncomfortable. When your day’s not perfect, it’s not a failure or a terrible loss. It’s just another day.
Barbara Sher (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
i haven’t got a speech, i didn’t plan words — i didn’t even try to. i just knew i had to get here, to stand here and i knew i wanted you to listen. to really listen, not just to pull a face like you’re listening, like you do the rest of the time. a face like you’re feeling instead of processing. you pull a face and poke it towards the stage and we la-di-da, we sing and dance and tumble around, and all you see up here — it’s not people, you don’t see people up here. it’s all fodder. and the faker the fodder is, the more you love it, because fake fodder’s all you think works anymore. fake fodder is all that we can stomach — actually, not quite all: real pain, real viciousness, that we can take.
yeah, stick a fat man up a pole and we’ll laugh ourselves feral, because we’ve earned the right. we’ve done cell time and he’s slacking, the scum. so ha ha ha at him. because we’re so out of our minds with desperation we don’t know any better. all we know is fake fodder and buying shit. that’s how we speak to each other, how we express ourselves is buying shit. what? i have a dream? the peak of our dreams is a new app for our dopple. an app doesn’t exist! it’s not even there. we buy shit that’s not even there!
show us something real and free and beautiful — you couldn’t, yeah? it’d break us. we’re too numb for it. i might as well choke. it’s only so much wonder we can bear, that’s why when you find any wonder whatsoever you dole it out in meagre portions, and only then until it’s augmented, and packaged, and pumped through 10,000 pre-assigned filters, ‘till it’s nothing more than a meaningless series of lights, while we ride day in day out, going where? powering what? all tiny cells and tiny screens and bigger cells and bigger screens.
and fuck you! fuck you, that’s what it all boils down to…it’s fuck you! fuck you for sitting there and slowly making things worse. fuck you and your spotlight and your sanctimonious faces, and fuck you all for taking the one thing i ever came close to anything real about anything, for oozing around it and crushing it into bone, into a joke, one more ugly joke in a kingdom of millions — and then fuck you for happening. fuck you for me, for us, for everyone. fuck you!
IAMX - I Am Terrified
You look good in leather, in bars
Breaking things, breaking hearts
You look good in pleasure, in hotels
Loneliness is the key to break that spell
I am terrified, I think too much
I get emotional when I drink too much
I buy every cry, ‘cause I don’t trust
I am terrified, I think too much
In your blood, the fetish
The prize of a million teasing moments blind
Will release you from the circus, the railway
But the gravity between us will keep us safe
I am terrified, I think too much
I get emotional when I drink too much
I buy every cry, ‘cause I don’t trust
I am terrified!
I am terrified, I think too much
I get emotional when I drink too much
I buy every cry, ‘cause I don’t trust
I am terrified!
I am terrified!
I am terrified!
‘Cause I drink too much
‘Cause I drank too much!This song describes me way too well
